Cling to the Cross
Death has shaken your soul to its core. Mine too.
When I first heard the words, “I’m sorry, there’s no heartbeat,” it seemed like my life was being siphoned out of me. I strained to take in each new breath of air, and as I looked up at the monitor, staring at the stillness of my baby, I felt as though I was watching someone else’s nightmare unfold before my eyes. In that moment, death seemed to consume me.
The death of your child is an excruciating heartache that alters the course of your life.
There may be times when it seems as though you are being ...
Five Years Later
On February 28, my two and a half year old was crying about two small marks on his knuckle and palm. I kissed his hand and reassured him that God would help to heal his ouchies and that he would be okay. I pointed out to him that one of them was already healing over and explained how God had made his body and was helping his body to heal.
On this same day, five years earlier, I had asked God to exercise the healing power that I assured my son of when I had implored Him to heal my daughter, Elayah, as she was dying.
This was not the first time I had asked God to heal ...
Discussions in Grief: Perfectionism in Grief
Grieving involves new emotions and considerations often too many to numbers. When you find yourself in overwhelming grief, you likely feel buried and lost. In this series, we slowly and compassionately look at one aspect of grief at a time from a biblical perspective for the newly grieving mother. Click {here} to read past posts in this series.
Ashlee is the Editorial Coordinator for Hope Mommies and author of I AM (Hope Mommies, 2017) and Identity (Hope Mommies, 2018). She and her husband, Jesse, live in Milwaukee with their children—five on ...
Mandy’s Story
My husband and I tried to get pregnant for three years before finally deciding to seek help with fertility treatments. We were lucky enough to get pregnant soon after. When that sweet bundle of much wanted baby was seven months old, we were shocked to find out we were pregnant again—this time on our own. We were thrilled beyond belief. Our prayers had been answered.
My pregnancy was easy. Everything went perfect. I really wanted to go into labor naturally this time and that wish came true. The night of May 20, 2019, after taking a warm Epsom salt bath, my contractions ...
Cliche Comforts: “It Will Happen When the Time is Right”
“When the time is right…” What a common cliché in many of life’s struggles! This saying quickly forms on the tongue of those who awkwardly don’t know what else to say to a friend experiencing a painful waiting. Waiting for a baby, waiting for a husband, waiting for a job, waiting for an “all clear” diagnosis; it’s all too easy to simply say, “It’ll happen when the time is right,” and brush off the hurt with an imaginary end date. On the surface, as is the case with most clichés, it’s an innocent, harmless, partial truth, and occasionally even ...
Ask the Blog Team: How Can You Tell If Your Desire To Have Another Baby Is Not Just Your Heart Longing For The Baby That Has Died?
Welcome to our Q+A series, Ask the Blog Team. In this series, the Hope Mommies blog team joins together to answer questions that are commonly asked in grief. If there is a question or topic that you have wrestled with in your grief that you would like the opportunity to see how other Hope Moms have processed or answered, we would love to hear from you. You can submit your questions here.
How can you tell if your desire to have another baby is not just your heart longing for the baby that has died?
After losing my stillborn son at 37 weeks, our family didn’t ...
In the Word: Already Ours
Welcome to Hope Mommies’ In the Word devotionals. It is our desire that this series will aid you in getting in the Bible for yourself and discovering the joy that comes from hearing from God through the pages of His Word.
"who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time." 1 Peter 1:5
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Our heavenly future is being guarded on an on-going basis according to the language used here. It is being guarded even now, this minute. Why is that important? This means it is already ready and prepared....
What Comes Will Be His Gift
Sometimes I wake up and feel the stillness, I wonder if I’m empty again. I wait, trying just to breath when everything feels too quiet.
And then I feel her. She moves so deep within me. That pulse inside—the universe shifts—I feel her intertwined with my body and blood, nestled deep inside, everything that I am is protecting her. And yet I am completely out of control, this seed growing and growing takes no thought from myself. I don’t knit her together. I don’t form her blinking eyes, curling fingers, or kicking feet. Yahweh does—the One who has always been ...
Discussions in Grief: Timeline
Grieving involves new emotions and considerations often too many to numbers. When you find yourself in overwhelming grief, you likely feel buried and lost. In this series, we slowly and compassionately look at one aspect of grief at a time from a biblical perspective for the newly grieving mother. Click {here} to read past posts in this series.
Imagine setting out on a road trip all alone without a map. There is a destination, but it isn’t clear where. There are deep canyons, detours, and road blocks along the way, but without a map or GPS the route will be ...
Melody’s Story
My story as a mother began in August 2017. As my husband and I were just over two and a half years into our marriage, we thought it was a good time to try and start a family. We started trying that July, and to our surprise we found out we were pregnant in August. We were thrilled and couldn’t wait to tell family.
We told our parents when we were eight weeks along. It was a Saturday morning. The next day ended turning into something completely different than we had ever imagined. We were supposed to go to a professional football game that day, but I started bleeding ...
