71 results for tag: Stillbirth
In the emergency room I looked at the sonogram screen and couldn’t really see Adalynn Grace. I just thought the equipment wasn’t the best there since it was the ER. A few hours before I had a gush of fluid and didn’t expect to be told it was my water that had broken at 20 weeks.
Unfortunately, we had trouble with this pregnancy even before it started. My husband and I had prayed for 3 years to add this beautiful life to our family of three. We were over the moon to find out that we had been blessed again with another little girl. My oldest daughter was more than excited to find out she would be a big sister.
At the start of this ...
In 2018, my husband, Brian and I had been trying to get pregnant for almost three years. Shortly after, we realized Brian had a low sperm count and he started infertility treatments called Clomid. He had only been using Clomid for two or three months when we realized that we needed to get off of it.
I remember laying on the bathroom floor on my knees, surrendering to God and His timing. "Lord, you know our hearts desire to be parents. If You allow us that opportunity, we will raise this child to know You".
Only a few months later, we found out we were pregnant—and we had conceived naturally. But the excitement didn't last long when we soon ...
Shortly after our oldest son, Kason, turned a year old, my husband and I began planning to expand our little family. After struggling with unexplained infertility with Kason, we did not know if it would take months or years to become pregnant again. But in May of 2014, I became pregnant with our daughter.
My pregnancy was perfect! It wasn’t until a week before our due date that any worry invaded my mind. It was a Friday when I noticed that I was not feeling her move as I normally did. I kept trying to convince myself that all was fine and that there was nothing to worry about. I thought maybe she was just running out of room and didn’t have ...
It had been nearly a year since our early miscarriage and we yearned for a sibling here for our almost 3-year-old son. I had recently finished reading a book on prayer which inspired me to keep a prayer journal and be more intentional in seeking quiet time with the Lord.
I began to recognize that my fervent desire (bordering on obsession) to expand our family had become an idol to me. A verse that I continued to meditate on during that time says, “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4). These words sank deep as I began to understand that the Lord promises to place His desires in our heart, not ...
My daughter's was an easy pregnancy. I glowed from day one, not having much nausea, all the way through to the end when my overdue pregnant self waddled into a room, happy and content, dreaming of my baby. Aside from her necessary induction ten days after her due date, my pregnancy and delivery were textbook. What a blessing. One that I took for granted, as most do when they haven't been touched with loss.
Her younger brother's story, while textbook in the pregnancy stages, didn't conclude with a happy ending. Funny how all these years later, I can close my eyes and review details that weren't as sharp to me as I was living in them. The “grief ...
My story as a mother began in August 2017. As my husband and I were just over two and a half years into our marriage, we thought it was a good time to try and start a family. We started trying that July, and to our surprise we found out we were pregnant in August. We were thrilled and couldn’t wait to tell family.
We told our parents when we were eight weeks along. It was a Saturday morning. The next day ended turning into something completely different than we had ever imagined. We were supposed to go to a professional football game that day, but I started bleeding heavily in the morning. I knew something wasn’t right and called the midwife I ...
My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our second child on October 9, 2020. I was excited and nervous at the same time thinking about becoming a mommy of two. As time went by, it obviously became more and more exciting. We found out at 20 weeks we were pregnant with a baby boy. It was the first boy on my side of the family so we were all very excited.
I had a very easy pregnancy. I had no complications and baby was very healthy all the way through. As a matter of fact, at my last OB appointment the doctor said, “I wish every pregnancy was this easy.”
I was 38 weeks gestation when I started having contractions at home. They ...
Right before my 20 week sonogram, we asked Elexander, our oldest son, if we were going to have a boy or a girl. He informed me it was a fish. Fish were his new favorite thing, and he was adamant that mommy had a fish in her stomach. So our new baby’s nickname was fish, and soon we would be able to give him or her a real name.
We went in for our typical 20 month sonogram. We were so excited to find out if we were carrying a boy or a girl. I was betting on a girl, although if I had another crazy little boy like Elexander I would be just as happy. We went into the office and the technician started looking at our baby. Initially everything looked ...
For as long as I can remember, one of my greatest desires has been to be a mommy. In August of 2020, my dream became a reality. My husband and I frequently talked about growing our family, and I remember vividly the day we decided to start trying.
At the time, we knew my dad had some health concerns, and we knew it was one of two things —pancreatitis or pancreatic cancer. On August 8, 2020, my husband, Austin, and I went on a hike. I remember sitting on a quiet bench along the trail and telling Austin that I did not want to wait any longer to try for a baby; I wanted my children to have my dad as long as possible. That day, we asked the Lord to ...
One day life for our growing family seemed perfect. Being 39 weeks pregnant, we decided to take a family day to make memories together before becoming a family of four. We anticipated big changes ahead for our family and wanted to make the most of the moments beforehand.
The next day, we found out that something unexplainable and incomprehensible had happened.
We delivered our 39 week son, stillborn. Devastated and confused was only the beginning of the mountain of feelings we were confronted with. We were left sifting through the cobwebs of emotions, trying to discern how to hold onto hope in the darkest of seasons. We ...
