Kinsey’s Story
It’s hard to believe that it’s been a year already. A year since our world was shaken.
A year ago, this month, our little family welcomed a new addition—one we had eagerly awaited and prayed for, for so long. And instead of snuggling him in my bed, I was on my knees in the hospital bathroom, with my head to the cold floor, begging God to spare our son. It was not supposed to end this way. This was not what I had imagined six months before when I first saw those two pink lines.
In Feb, 2015 we found out that we were expecting our second child. Our 2-year-old son ...
Heather’s Story
My story began long before the births and deaths of my babies. I had always wanted to be a mom. I wanted a big family. I wanted lots of children. Fast forward to married life, and I learned I couldn’t have children without medical intervention. With the use of fertility drugs, a willing husband to give me hundreds of shots, and great doctors, I became a mom to my firstborn, Claire. Life was fabulous. We decided to try 6 months later. It was a “breeze” the first time, so how hard could it really be? I was so very naive.
It was very hard to get pregnant the second ...
Testimony {Rhiannon’s Retreat Experience}
When I first heard about the Hope Mommies retreat, I felt in my heart that I had to go. I wanted to connect with other moms like me, to hear that I wasn’t alone in my grief. But I will admit, as the time got closer, and especially in the week leading up to the retreat, I was a bit afraid of how much it would hurt being there. I was only 5 months out from losing our daughter at 35 weeks after 2 years of trying and 2 previous miscarriages, and I had just found out that I would be walking through secondary infertility. I wasn’t sure if it would be too painful to ...
Laura’s Story
My pregnancy with my daughter was easy. I glowed from day one, never having much nausea, all the way through to the end when my overdue self waddled into a room, happy and content, dreaming of my baby. Aside from her necessary induction ten days after her due date, my pregnancy and delivery were textbook. This is one thing that I truly took for granted, as most do when they haven't been touched with loss.
Her younger brother's story, while textbook in the pregnancy stages, didn't conclude with a happy ending. Funny how eight years later, I can close my eyes and review ...
Beautiful Inheritance {Hope Mommies 2017 Retreat Theme}
Please tell me I am not the only one that has ever skimmed over a word they didn’t know the meaning of in the Bible? Miktam. That was my word. Read it. Didn’t understand it. Moved on. But one day, several years ago, I sat in church as my pastor read Psalm 16 aloud. “Psalm 16. You Will Not Abandon My Soul. A Miktam of David.” But then he paused and looked up. He asked if anyone knew what the word Miktam meant. I sat in my chair hoping that no one else knew the meaning either so that ...
Julia’s Story
“I’m sorry, I normally can see a heartbeat in a baby this size, but I don't.”
“I’m sorry, this doesn't look to me like a viable pregnancy.”
Two different pregnancies, two different ultrasound techs, two different lives lost. And my heart broken two different times.
The doctors say it’s good that my two “missed” miscarriages didn't happen in a row. I had a healthy son between the two of them. But that didn't comfort me. Nothing can comfort a woman who has just found out her baby “isn't viable.” Nothing but the love of Jesus.
The first time ...
Hope Group Testimonies
Hope Groups are small groups of women who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss (up to two years of age) at any point in their life. It’s a collection of women who meet and share their stories with one another, pray together, ask questions, share hurts, share happinesses, and cling to His Word to find that there is still hope after the death of their precious sons and daughters.
Hope Groups are nine-week Bible study small groups. Some meet online through Facebook and some meet in person. Each group will establish a specific meeting time. ...
Brittnie’s Story
"It was April Fools Day. Pregnant with our third child, we were scheduled to receive our 20-week anatomy scan, and to learn the sex of our littlest babe. We arrived eager and couldn’t help but giggle that here we were again — God had blessed us with yet another surprise miracle, after struggling to conceive our first child.
Three babies in three years when we were once told “You might never be able to do this on your own.” We couldn’t wait to learn if this last blessing in my womb was a boy or a girl. The moment the technician started the scan I knew something ...
Raegan’s Story
"I had a textbook pregnancy. It was my first pregnancy, and I enjoyed every second of it. We didn’t find out the gender because we wanted it to be a surprise. I chose to use a midwife for my prenatal care and delivery. It was always my dream to have a completely natural birth in water at a birth center. I went into early labor on my due date which was May 8th at about 11 pm. This was when the contractions first woke me up. They weren’t bad, so I just tried to get as much sleep as possible. When my husband woke up to go to work, I told him that I’d been ...
Jessica’s Story
"A little before we made the decision to start trying for baby number three, my older sister and her husband found out that their son, Jaxson, had a hereditary genetic disorder that was complicated. It would require a bone marrow transplant along with additional, life long, support of various kinds. Of course this was difficult news for our entire family to digest but I didn’t worry about the effects that it could have on my family- until a conversation that I had with someone close to the situation. I was excited to share that we were going to start trying for ...
