4 results for tag: Courtney
Sustained Through Loss
"It doesn't get any easier, does it?" You meet kindred spirits in some of the strangest places sometimes. As I nervously stood in line at my local drugstore I dreaded what I was about to do. I knew I needed the medicine in order to have some form of closure and to complete the miscarriage, but something felt so wrong about it all. Deep within my soul I wanted to scream to all who were around me: "I'm not having an abortion. I promise. I was pregnant. I wanted this baby!" Thankfully I didn't have to. But that didn't make the situation any less uncomfortable for me. As the pharmacist asked me the obligatory "are you pregnant?" (which is apparently ...
Finding Your Home on Mother’s Day
Empty arms have a way of making a woman feel homeless and out of place. Mother’s Day can make you feel like you don’t belong at church or even in your circle of friends. You may be surrounded by pregnant women, newborn babies, or families with quivers full of children, and your arms ache to be a part of the club. But you’re not.
Is there a place for you in God’s house? He hasn’t yet made you the joyous mother of children, does He still have a home for you (Psalm 113:9)? Maybe you recently lost a child through miscarriage, stillbirth, or in infancy. You might feel like the Psalmist in Psalm 77 who says:
“In the day of my trouble I ...
Testimony Tuesday {Courtney’s Testimony}
"It doesn't get any easier, does it?"
You meet kindred spirits in some of the strangest places sometimes. As I nervously stood in line at my local drugstore I dreaded what I was about to do. I knew I needed the medicine in order to have some form of closure and to complete the miscarriage, but something felt so wrong about it all. Deep within my soul I wanted to scream to all who were around me:
"I'm not having an abortion. I promise. I was pregnant. I wanted this baby!"
Thankfully I didn't have to. But that didn't make the situation any less uncomfortable for me. As the pharmacist asked me the obligatory "are you pregnant?" (which is ...
Testimony Tuesday: Courtney’s Testimony
I’ve thought a lot about the experience of suffering and the Bible’s response to our suffering this past year. Before our miscarriage and infertility I quickly passed over passages on suffering, not because I didn’t see them as important, but I just didn’t relate to them. I had faced trials before, but nothing that really made me wrestle with God’s good plan for my life in the way I have recently. I don’t doubt His goodness; I just need to understand it more than ever before. While difficult, that is a good result of our suffering. It causes us to lean hard into Him and desperately seek His face because without His presence in our lives we ...
