54 results for author: Ashlee Schmidt
Discussions in Grief: Permission to Grieve
Grieving involves new emotions and considerations often too many to numbers. When you find yourself in overwhelming grief, you likely feel buried and lost. In this series, we slowly and compassionately look at one aspect of grief at a time from a biblical perspective for the newly grieving mother. Click {here} to read past posts in this series.
I remember the first time I felt the guilt. It had been a few weeks since Chance’s funeral, my son who we lost at 20 weeks’ gestation, and I was alone, at home, with my two daughters, ages 15 months and 2.5 years.
The memory box the hospital gave me sat on my dining room table, I could not yet ...
Discussions in Grief: Waves
Grieving involves new emotions and considerations often too many to numbers. When you find yourself in overwhelming grief, you likely feel buried and lost. In this series, we slowly and compassionately look at one aspect of grief at a time from a biblical perspective for the newly grieving mother. Click {here} to read past posts in this series.
One of my favorite memories as a child was going to the coast with my parents. My mother loved to play in the ocean and we spent hours splashing in the waves. When I lived near the Gulf of Mexico, a group of us went to the coast nearly every week. Sometimes we played on the shore and let the waves ...
Discussions in Grief: Wailing
Grieving involves new emotions and considerations often too many to numbers. When you find yourself in overwhelming grief, you likely feel buried and lost. In this series, we slowly and compassionately look at one aspect of grief at a time from a biblical perspective for the newly grieving mother. Click {here} to read past posts in this series.
About two months after Max’s death, I found myself at a dear friend’s wedding. She had just danced her father/daughter dance as her husband walked out onto the floor with his mom. I felt my chest tighten and a lump form in my throat. Then the music began, and suddenly everything inside me broke. I ...
Book Review: “A Heart Set Free,” by Christina Fox
Melissa Kruger, who blogs at The Gospel Coalition, wrote this in the foreword of A Heart Set Free, by Christina Fox, concerning her struggle to reconcile feelings with the Christian faith: “Each time I tried to push [my emotions] down, they would pop back up in another form. In some ways, I found myself struggling with the fact that I had any negative emotions at all. Wasn’t I supposed to “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you”? (1 Thess. 5:16-18) Did this verse leave room for sorrow, fear, anxiety, or grief?” Kruger endorses Fox’s work as ...
Finding Your Home on Mother’s Day
Empty arms have a way of making a woman feel homeless and out of place. Mother’s Day can make you feel like you don’t belong at church or even in your circle of friends. You may be surrounded by pregnant women, newborn babies, or families with quivers full of children, and your arms ache to be a part of the club. But you’re not.
Is there a place for you in God’s house? He hasn’t yet made you the joyous mother of children, does He still have a home for you (Psalm 113:9)? Maybe you recently lost a child through miscarriage, stillbirth, or in infancy. You might feel like the Psalmist in Psalm 77 who says:
“In the day of my trouble I ...
Testimony Tuesday {Lindsey’s Experience}
It was what would’ve been Dasah’s two-month birthday but instead of taking cute photos of her I was standing at her gravesite for the first time since we buried her. It was a beautiful day and somehow as I was driving that day I found myself turning at the road that goes into the cemetery instead of just driving by as I usually do. Whenever anyone says they’ve just “found themselves” somewhere I’ve always thought they must be a little crazy. Who just “finds themselves” somewhere? Well, that day I became that crazy person.
I think of turning every time I’ve driven by and just can never seem to muster up the energy to face whatever ...
