He Gives Peace

When our oldest daughter was a baby, she, like many babies, did not enjoy her carseat. She would scream and scream until we discovered that there was a certain song that would immediately quiet her. The name of the song was “Peace” from the children’s album “To Be Like Jesus” by Sovereign Grace Ministries. As I listened to this song over and over for the first year of my baby girl’s life, I had no idea the impact that it would have on me in the years to follow.

Peace, You give me peace
When the storms come and I’m afraid 

In March of 2011 the storms came. They were big storms, and the word afraid didn’t even come close to what I was feeling in the pit of my stomach. I had just been told that the baby boy growing in my womb wasn’t going to live. “Lord, give me peace.”

Peace, You give me peace
When I trust in the words You say
You give me peace 

Isaiah 26:3 says “You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” I knew I had a choice. I could trust what the Lord says in His Word and focus on the fact the He is good, or I could turn my back on everything I had ever known to be true. “Lord, give me peace.”

If You can calm the sea
Then You can comfort me
If winds obey Your voice
Why should I fear their noise 

The God who created the universe, the One that can calm the seas and command the wind with His voice, is the One who created my baby boy and held his life in the palm of His hand. He was in total and complete control, and I needn’t worry. “Lord, give me peace.”

And though my eyes can’t see
I know You’re with me 

For the four months that I carried Isaac—knowing that he was sick and that if he lived through delivery I would not hold him for long—I wasn’t always able to see God’s goodness. I certainly didn’t always feel it, but I knew He was there. I knew that the Bible said He would never leave or forsake me. “Lord, give me peace.”

That continued to be my prayer up until the delivery of our precious son, and in the months that followed. Just as it says in His Word, the Lord was faithful to provide a peace that surpassed all understanding. Through the lyrics of a simple children’s song, He reminded me of incredible truth that helped me walk through some of the hardest days of my life. Even as I’m listening to this song today for this post, the tears are beginning to well up in my eyes. Tears from remembering the heartache that I experienced in 2011. Tears from my mommy heart that still misses her baby boy. But most of all, they are tears of joy that come from knowing and experiencing that God is good and will provide peace to His children!

Kacie lives in Austin, Texas, and is the mommy of three precious daughters on earth and a sweet baby boy in heaven. She loves reading, coffee dates with her husband, Jonathan, and traveling with her family. She is passionate about helping women grow in biblical literacy and theology and is the cohost of the Adorned Podcast. She also blogs at www.kaciehunt.com.

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