A Song for My Soul: Weep With Me

Music has the ability to speak into the deepest recesses of our hearts. God often uses songs to speak hope and encouragement to our souls. In this series, Hope Moms share songs that have pointed them to the hope of Christ in the midst of their grief. Is there a song that has comforted you in your grief? We’d love to have you share your story here.

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During a particularly large chasm of grief after our loss of Anna, I simply wanted to be sad and cry over her daily. Although these times were exhausting and time consuming, I hated avoiding it because that is when I felt closest to her. I’d weep over her absence and imagine her being near. I’d cry out, “God please let her know I miss her so much.”

These weren’t the times I questioned the Lord with the whys, rather I communed with Him in my sorrow. I pictured Anna being held safely in His arms and myself being consoled in those same tender arms. We were intimately connected, and I knew He wept with me. During this phase, I heard the song “Weep with Me,” by Rend Collective for the first time and it was exactly the cry of my heart.

Weep with me
Lord, will You weep with me?
I don’t need answers, all I need
Is to know that You care for me
Hear my plea
Are You even listening?
Lord, I will wrestle with Your heart
But I won’t let You go

I often maintained my intimacy with the Lord while grieving, but I want you to know that sin was still there powerfully playing tug-o-war with the rest that He offered—jealousy, anger, and most commonly unbelief taking the form of distrust. All of the unknown related to my loss often led to fear that overwhelmed me. I had become afraid of death—the very thing Jesus was victorious over. It was there, too, that He wept with me.

You know I believe
Help my unbelief

The author of Psalm 42 expresses that struggle like this:

“My tears have been my food day and night, while they continually say to me, where is your God? … O my God, my soul is cast down within me… Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him….”

Likewise, some of my most sincere times of worship happened in my sorrow when I could kneel before Him in my brokenness and despair to say, “Yet I will praise you. Even in the wake of my greatest loss and when facing abundant unknown, I will praise You.” He was the same in the darkness of our sorrow as He was in the joyous light of finding out we were pregnant. He was still good, kind, and caring, and we could still praise Him in the shadows of our loss.

Yet I will praise You
Yet I will sing of Your name
Here in the shadows
Here I will offer my praise
What’s true in the light
Is still true in the dark
You’re good and You’re kind
And You care for this heart

The shortest verse in the Bible, yet possibly one of the most profound about the Lord’s ability to relate to us as humans is, “Jesus wept” (John 11:35). Isaiah also described the coming Messiah as “well acquainted with grief” and “a Man of Sorrows” (Isaiah 53:3) because He shared in our suffering through His own death. Yet through it all He remains our Creator, Savior, and victorious Conqueror. With these attributes, He has the ability to weep with each of us while still providing healing, comfort, and hope as we mourn our children.

Lord, I believe
You weep with me

Imagine the great strength and power it took Him to part the Red Sea for hundreds of thousands of souls to pass through. Doesn’t it feel like that same strength is needed to pass through our sea of tears after losing our babies? Like the Israelites facing their obstacle, we sometimes don’t want to trust such a plan to keep us moving forward through our loss. We’d rather stay stuck in our pits of grief because it keeps us near to our pain, and our children. Instead, we can stand up in faith because of His mighty strength. And with His Word lighting our path, we can take that next directed step in the midst of our lament.

Part the seas Lord, make a way for me
Here in the midst of my lament
I have faith, yes I still believe
That You love me
Your plans are to prosper me
You’re working everything for good
Even when I can’t see

When our meager step becomes stride, we settle into the sweet love song He has written over our loss and our children’s lives. It becomes our anthem to show the world who He is even in death, drawing others nearer to Him. We can come together and raise up this anthem as one because our Savior has first met us in our sorrow.

He has wept with us.
Turn my lament into a love song
From this lament, raise up an anthem
(I’ll sing it in the darkness)
Oh, turn my lament into a love song
(‘Cause I love You, Lord)
And from this lament, raise up an anthem, oh
Yeah, You weep with me

“You number my wanderings; put my tears into Your bottle; are they not in Your book?”
Psalm 56:8

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I am married to Justin and Hope Mommy to Anna Joy. We live in sunny south Florida where I love reading, writing, teaching, and just being with family & friends! I work in the hospital as a RN, and humbly serve as volunteer Nurse Manager at our local pregnancy resource center, Care Net. My personal ministry passions include leading women to deeper understanding of Jesus’ truth through their marriage struggles, sexuality, and miscarriage.

 

 

We would be honored to share your story as a Hope Mom on our blog. On Saturdays we feature Hope Moms’ stories in order to showcase God’s faithfulness even in the midst of such deep sorrow. If you would like to have your story shared on our blog for this purpose, learn more and submit here.

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